Long Haul / Legit Attempts to Survive :: Give In / Give Up
picking a long-term path and sticking with it offers more stability
potential better sense of self
less existential crises??
live long enough to see society collapse?? (personal wish)
collecting capital = degree of security
changing my mind years later would leave me right back where i started
will get some disease or other if i live long enough
existential drudge could still kick in
less indulgence, more responsibilities?
no guarantee i won’t randomly get hit by a bus / never reap rewards of my work
1] Just Give In to America © / Choose Life
health insurance, rent $!
mani/pedis for daaaays
could spend hours watching shitty TV and not feel bad about it
could eat all the high-fat sugary foods i love
stop giving a shit about the environment, poor people, anything other than me
give up all self-awareness, enjoy white privilege, become a hater for fun
PHARMACEUTICALS! xanax and percocet and ambien
spend money on whatever i want without thinking
very low bar for being “a good person”
unfulfilling job with boss i loathe, doing the same shit every day
would probably only hang with really boring people
will have to pretend to give a shit about a lot of things i couldn’t give a shit about
possibly have to watch televised sporting events
if i shut off the parts of me that give a shit, what else do i lose?
what if i morph into a Republican??
what if i snap???
will still have bills and student loans
2] Become Anarcho-Punk
not feel guilty for half-assing my politics
give up pretenses of caring about sports / celebrities / politeness
could really devote time and energy to causes i care about, actually affect change
feel fulfilled, sense of purpose
work less, live more
spend time with passionate, intelligent people
could get tattoos / try all the hair colors i’ve always wanted to try
will be hungry a lot- potential for malnutrition
massive learning curve! e.g. making my own stuff, being sustainable, etc.
no health insurance for when sick / injured
very real possibility of homelessness
the future is a complete unknown
no mani/pedis OR sushi
may spend some time in jail
3] Become Ayn Rand Freak Capitalist
would probably get to drink a lot of whiskey
without morals or empathy, i could accomplish a lot!
be on the side of the winners (old white guys) for once
part of me really enjoys manipulation / being a dick- could be fun!
could fake a conversion and shell out ex-atheist / ‘Heaven is for Real’ books
could marry a closeted Republican dude and not work at all
Ann Coulter is laughing all the way to the bank, just saying. maybe get in on that?
if it works out, could be ballin’ $$$
potentially a fuckton of work
what marketable skills do i have? like really
essentially be a prostitute at all levels
would have to hang out with- and kiss up to- total assholes
the NSA file on me would keep me from a cush Government job
would have to learn golf??
would have to go to church
in the every-man-for-himself-bootstrap world, i could work my ass off for years and still end up with nothing through no fault of my own
4] Become an Ascetic
Leave crushing pressure of careerism b.s.
no more social anxiety / fake obligations / performing roles
would probably eat a lot healthier, sleep better?
maybe get really good at meditation
not feel guilty for contributing to shitty society
wear comfy clothes 24/7
do i have to join a monastery / sect? how do i choose
how do i listen to my music?
don’t have the skills to live on a mountain alone
potentially a lot of daily chores
i don’t know if monks get laid
it’d be a dick move to ditch my brother
there’s no way i’d look good bald / with dreads / however ascetics do hair (does the fact this is a legit 'con' for me preclude me from being a true ascetic?? probably no more than the fact that i initially typed "aesthetic" by accident in the first bullet point)